I'm having a down kinda day today. I shouldn't be, I got up this morning and did my workout, sometimes I let my feelings get in the way of knowing whats right. I just wish I could be where I want to be now.. I know that's not possible and I didn't pack on the pounds overnight so they wont be coming off in one night. I know in my head that I am doing the right thing, eating right, working out, not resorting to diet pills. I'm doing it the healthy way and its working. I really have nothing to complain about.
One thing that worries me though is that maybe I'm not doing enough. I heard over the weekend that to really burn off the fat I should be doing at least a hour of cardio????? I don't have time for that,,, I suppose I could get up even earlier but I DON'T want to! I'm still waiting to get to the point that I look forward to and enjoy exercise. I hope I get there one day. I'm always happy I did it but I wouldn't say I enjoy it yet. I just know its what I need to do.
I wonder what I'm going to look like when I get to my goal. I'm pretty sure I wont look like the women I see in the fitness magazines. I want to look like that, but I have stretch marks, I've had 3 kids, I have a scar on my stomach from a surgery I had as a baby that makes my stomach look deformed. I worry about my skin not bouncing back and it being saggy. I know in my head that all of this doesn't really matter and health is the main goal, I just can't help having these thoughts run through my head. I just have to push them to the back of my brain and keep pushing on.. I can't look any worse right?